Well, this is my first post and I'm already thinking that the title is a little misleading. It makes me seem normal. I'm not normal. I'm not a freak with weird secret fetishes, or anything like that, but I'm definitely not what most people think of when they picture a suburban mom. But maybe no one is what they "should be" or what society has labeled them. We're all complicated beasts and this blog is my way of dealing with that.

Let's just get it out there and move on. I'm thirty-six years old, married to a wonderful guy for ten years, mother of four amazing kids, and an alcoholic. I grew up in a very affluent town and am now living in a similar town where perfection is not only expected, but assumed. After years of dealing with my inevitable lack of this perfection in ways that varied from eating disorders, alcohol, and self-hate, I'm writing this blog as a final way to say "F**k it!".

Today is my Day 1, in so many ways. Day 1 of sobriety. Day 1 of self-acceptance, for better or for worse. Day 1 of honesty. Day 1 of Life. I'm not sure how I'll proceed with this blog, I guess I'll just let it grow organically and see what happens. This is my gift to myself and I can't wait to track my journey. What the hell, here we go!